His entry into the world was an early introduction to struggle as he was born with a respiratory condition lasting to the teen years. In his mid-teens, John struggled with a less than healthy self-view. In spite of the physical constraints, John remembers his childhood as happy. The mid-teen depression is a fading memory as he chooses to think on his seventeenth year – a magical time. He no longer fought self-disdain, he lived presently, and he loved his friends.
John had grand visions of his place in the world. College may be where the disconnect began. The confident seventeen year-old had to face family financial issues and what this meant to his college goals. College couldn’t end soon enough. Becoming less present, John began the energy draining habit of wishing portions of his life away.
A university degree turned into a job just as his dad had said it would. Over the next few years, work in the real world became more and more about goals that were not his own.
In his late twenties, John’s mid-teen depression found him. In the ten years post college, he was constantly searching for his place; a worthy work – a calling. At age 32, he made what would become a significant change, leaving the retail business he loved and the management he could no longer tolerate. In many ways, he began again.
Our experience never leaves us as it becomes part of our intuition; our super-intelligence.
As John began again in this significant change, he found the space and opportunity to once again possess his voice. He was consciously reinvested in the journey when, at age 42, he set a goal to be the seventeen year-old he still was at his core.
How freeing this was. In self-permission, John was now free to loosen the grip of the world’s shoulds and connect again to his unique ought. John could now continue his story of trust begun so many years before; a story of self-trust as the character finds a new confidence in who they really are.